
He was diagnosed after smashing someones car windows in causing $3700 in damage. I was considering getting a restraining order until I called the mental health emergency line and they said he needs mental help now before it gets worse. I knew then that no one in his life would make sure he does it so I stayed because I love him and I dont want anyone else to have to deal with getting their stuff broken while he stays in a state or disarray.He has had bipolar symptoms for a long time but it took this major incident for him to realize he needs to stay in treatment. Since starting meds he has been generally better but still has depression and manic episodes although they are shorter. No signs of med refusal so farI want to believe we have a future together still but almost every story here is people who are so glad they left. I think I have Borderline personality disorder or OCD (looking for help after suicide attempt 2 weeks ago...) which undoubtedly becomes 10x worse any time his mood is even the slightest bit away from "normal ". In a way having him diagnosed has made things easier because I can read more and actually "understand" what's going on.I feel like he is the only person who I truly trust (but dont trust?) and who actually understands me. We have both done crazy shit together and separate but we are committed to getting out of this cycle of BS passed down our family generations. We were both suicidal when we got together so unfortunately I feel like my only purpose in life is to make sure he is ok. Since making sure he is ok is the only thing keeping me from doing it anymore. Sometimes he is the most caring and supportive person in the world and other times he cant recognize anything other than what he feels in the moment it just leaves me feeling like trash. I feel like relationship wise, he is a very mild bipolar 1 person compared to some stories I've read here, but what we have gone through deeply hurts me.Anyone have any stories about fixing something like this and becoming stable? via /r/BipolarSOs https://ift.tt/36lFYK6
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