Tuesday, September 29, 2020

Need to vent real quick


I don’t know how to start this but Yeah, this year has been completely ass. Just graduated a few months back and turned 18, so school was abruptly ended and I had no grad ceremony but it’s whatever. I realized that I need a job aswell since I’m an adult now but that has gone bad too. Everywhere I apply i either get no response or just a straight up No, which I can understand because I have no prior job experience and I’m sure there’s an influx of people who do have experience looking for a job since a majority of people were laid off. I thought things were fine but then September comes around and man, September has been so shit. There’s not a day I wake up and think “wow I’m really happy to be alive rn”. Recently in the past two weeks my grandparents both passed away after contracting COVID along with my aunt who was caring and helping watch them. For some context I haven’t seen them since like 2018 and I was supposed to see them last month if the world hadn’t gone to shit. *More context, they live in California and my family lives in Florida. * My deadbeat biological dad who has been in and out of jail lived with them for a few years and in my mind essentially held them hostage from me seeing them without having to see him if that makes any sense. My grandma was always welcoming to anyone and always forgave my dad but I could never. So that’s one reason.Now something that has been happening all month long is my mom and stepdad are getting divorced and lone behold My stepdad is also a piece of shit. Here’s some brief context, I live with my mom, step dad, two sisters (one who’s about to leave to college this weekend) and my younger brother who has autism which is my mom and stepdads kid. They got married before they had my younger brother unlike my biological dad and my mom. My stepdad was in the military but got discharged and we ended up moving to Florida and my mom had my younger brother in 2014. My stepdad has had years long problems with pills, alcohol and many other mental problems that one gets from going through war. Since before my younger brother was diagnosed with autism my stepdad has had many instances where it was obvious that he wasn’t fit to raise a child. Around 2016 my stepdad got an internship and moved in a paid for apartment(still in Florida) while my mom was left was left to sell our old house and deal with buying the new house and making sure my younger brother was getting taken care of. So we move in to our new house after months of waiting to it get built (we moved into an area that was getting more and more populated so houses weren’t readily available which meant we had like 5 months hopping around vacation rentals and hotels) and eventually my stepdads problems got to my mom. Especially with COVID getting him laid off of work she decide to divorce him. She didn’t take the first steps but offered my stepdad to divorce on completely equal and fine terms since it would be best for my younger brother. But instead my stepdad decided to act like a complete total b-word and lie on his divorce order thing saying he was the primary care taker for my younger brother and that my mom had done a list of bad things to his friends and family and that he wanted everything include the car they have and the house. He is just blatantly lying in his divorce order. that would be fine for my mom since she has me and my sister who have lists of experiences that can rebuke those claims but for Some fucking reason the court doesn’t seem to give two shits about my moms rebuttals and family members can’t testify in Florida. (I’m sure they do since she’s done this before) but the judge overseeing this case Has no children, the lawyer my mom picked said she was friends with my stepdads lawyer, and my moms lawyer seems to not see the full severity for the situation. My mom has worked her ass off to care for everyone in my family and my stepdad is blatantly slandering her and falsely accusing her of all this shit that he knows very well isn’t true. It pisses me off that this piece of shit is slandering my mom who has done everything to make sure his mental health was in check. My stepdad pretty much gives no shits about my younger brother and is only doing this for self gain because he is Tremendously in credit debt. He has also done tons of stupid shit that can get him in serious trouble like misusing fasfa money and steal from his employer which my mom will probably bring up in court. My mom has devoted the past six years towards my younger brother and ensuring he’s on the right path for his future while my piece of shit stepdad doesn’t do anything. The worse part is that my mom has literally devoted her life for my younger brother, she has no friends no days off and she constantly has to watch my younger brother whether it’s at home out of the house, any appointments me has, and his therapy. (obviously me and my sisters help with that too) Overall Florida is such a shit state, since me and my sisters can’t testify against him really pisses me off. Florida is such a shit state that doesn’t care for the children that go through custody battles in court and it shows.Sorry if this doesn’t seem as thought out but i just needed to get some of this shit off my chest. Let me know if you got any advice to get through these times or any helpTl/DR: this year sucks ass and my druggy stepdad is a lying piece of shit. via /r/offmychest https://ift.tt/33fWfhP

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