Every time I get this depressed I pull myself out believing things will get better but they have never actually improved. Why should I keep going?

I’ve been struggling my whole adult life with my mental health, I’m 27 now. I’ve done so much to try and improve my life in multiple areas yet things never actually get better and in some cases have become worse. I can’t deal with doing all these things for so many years yet nothing gets better and I can’t keep going through this anymore.I wish I would just die already so I don’t have to keep living this painful existence and wasting my time and energy trying to improve things when nothing actually happens. via /r/SuicideWatch https://ift.tt/32W6QhV